i dun wan

yeah........
there'll be a camp organised by San Seng Tong at the end of the year......

i heard that it'll be around 28,29,30,31 and 1st January 2009......
something like that...............

duh....................
i'm tired of this...............................
izzit i'm really getting old or what??
those young ppl really never care bout their own health de bo..........
sleep late late,liver rosak ar!!!!!!!!!!!

i heard that they planned to celebrate Countdown............during the camp...
haiz~~~~~~~~
for me...........it's actually quite meaningless...i dun feel like going...
but if i celebrate it with my closed FRIENDS...........
i think it'll be a very meaningful day!!!

haiz~~~~~~~~~~~
honestly...i'm bored and tired to serve for the YOUTH GROUP....
bcoz i found it's meaningless.........
i din do much things......
and i don't know much things...............
those ppl never treat ppl like me as a "gong wei"....(i think??)
they treat me like an innocent kid..........
maiguliu.............

i miss my friends..........
though it's rude...........but that's how i talk to my friend....
"maigu...cibai.........."
i feel free and relax to say in such way....though...it's really rude and no manner...
haiz..........
topics we talked everyday are very interesting and the topics are endless...........

but the topic between me and those ppl in YOUTH GP,
it's like.........
i dunno what to say...
then.........i became a very cool person...........

i don't know...........i juz wanna be with my friends.......
i love to talk..............
i'm tired to keep listening to the others.....................
though i'm a good listener...........
(maybe nobody knows that i'm a good listener...how pathetic i am T.T )

i'm a gemini............
GEMINI is talkative...........hate to be lonely...boring...motionless......nothing to do....
though sometimes i'm really very lazy to do things............
but actually everytime i'm lazy to do things........
i'm doing something....
mentally......

i love to think.........
think about anything...........
when i'm lazy to do things like walk....eat....write...study...do housework...
that means i'm thinking bout something......
i won't stop thinking...........
my brain never become blank......
i tried before...........
i try to "fa dai"....juz make my brain blank............
but i cant............
I REALLY CANT DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!am i an alien???
my brain is 24 hours de..........seven-eleven..."=.=

but everytime at SanSengTong.....
there'll be a lot of disturbance.......
i can't think what i usually think when i was lazy to do things...
when i'm in that condition....i have to do something............
I CAN'T STOP DOING ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!except i sleep.........
BUT I CANT SLEEP AT TAT TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so i have to do something....
so when i'm at SanSengTong.........
i'll be quite hardworking................
but...most of the time...........
i've nothing to do..................
when i've nothing to do and i can't do something mentally.......
i'll be very bored......................
I CAN'T STAND TO BE BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T.T.............that's y i dislike to go there..........
no frens.......................
i mean......close frens......................

i know that's all my problems...........
nothing to do with SanSengTong..........
juz i cant be bored..........
there's actually many things to do at SanSengTong......i can help.....
but i dun know bout the rules.........
so i dun dare to do anything without permission......

so sien............
so i bcom uninterested to go SanSeng......
and i dun really wanna go for the camp..........
i wanna play with my Friends.....
i wanna use the time to study anything i want.....

but...i only can choose to go for the camp and...
lead a small group.........
make myself teladan yang baik untuk diikuti oleh my ahli-ahli kumpulan saya....
i need to learn to be a good person first before i could be a teladan baik...
but they juz let me be the teladan baik before i could learn to be one...

and i also need to learn how to lead a small group first before i could really lead a group...
but they juz let me lead the group without me learn how to lead a group effectively...
it's hard to learn like this u know???
i'm actually the same level as those ahli-ahli kumpulan...
ya...maybe i have the potensi to be a "small psychologist" for them...
but if they've no problem.....there's no use for me to be a psychologist...
and i'll become.........a useless "bu dao yuan"...
coz...i dunno what to do...i dunno what to talk...
and i dunno how to play with them except for they are my close fren...

i'm different.........
i'm only active if i'm with my close frens....
i'm "die" if i'm not with my friends.....................................

haiz....dunno la........................
see lo..............
there'll be a way.........to solve my problems............

now concentrate on my study first......
=.=

KAMBATEH everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gemini

well....i found this...from a friend...(Jodi)
it's about Gemini........................hmmm.........................quite accurate...


Nice. Love is one of a kind.
Great listeners. Very Good at confusing people...
Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out.
Gemini's will not take any crap from anyone.
Gemini's like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily.
They are great at losing things and are forgetful.
Gemini's can be very sarcastic and childish at times, and are very nosey.
Trustworthy. Always happy

haha...those highlighted are so ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ya.................tat's Gemini....................................

i never realise Gemini is very good at confusing ppl..........
no wonder..................
haha..........................

Geminisssss~~~~~~don't u agree????
haha................................................

before and after

now....left 3 more weeks....
SPM soon coming....

i hate myself so much....that i'd no motivation to study..
everyone seems to done their preparation for the SPM.....

me?
shit....
sej din study yet....FOrm 4 still blur blur....Form 5 lagi teruk....only know a bit of the chapter 1...
=.=

i'm the person tat do things in a slow speed...
i don't like to be forced....
but the time always force me to finish my job..............
sien................most of the time i juz give up..........
i really hate myself for being a GEMINI....

i cant remain consisten....bullshit...
i don't want to destroy my future by that stupid SPM...
juz letters of A,B,C......decide our future.....
WTF...
i hope i can manage to study all the subjects in time.....
Amitabha....
Amitabha....
Amitabha....
Me,Bong Sze Ting can score 11A's in SPM...
sadhu...
sadhu...
sadhu...

i wish all of us can score the best and get the beautiful result that we hope for...
Bless all of u~~~
WE CAN DO IT!!!

be like a crazy student before SPM ba....
suck up all the knowledge and fight against the SPM...

after SPM....
feel free to do anything!!!

i wanna make my life more meaningful after SPM......
i hate the life of keep memorising everything and sacrifice my time to study those "die die" teory...
memorising isn't my job......
i hate memorising...being a Gemini gal...i have bad memory...i can't memorise so much things...
i wonder...how i'm gonna to memorise all the From 4 & 5 sej???and...PM some more....
Add Maths and Maths formulae....
those Chemistry,Biology and Physics teory?laws?principle?Definition?!
haiz~~~
ya.....
it's too late...to memorise....
but i still believe miracle...and...."USAHA TANGGA KEJAYAAN"...
KAMBATEH!!!!!

Amitabha....Amitabha....Amitabha....i can answer all the questions shown in the SPM papers...and get 11A's...!sadhu...sadhu...sadhu....

*first time i pray here...feel a bit weird...haha...*
BLESS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~